It was the kind of moment where I completely re-evaluated my life.
Do I actually like journalism? If not, what am I doing here?! Those were my questions coming back from class on Monday.
I mean, seriously, I’m doing a master’s program in journalism. Most would say that’s a little late in the game to be having an identity crisis.
The doubt was spurred by frustration with my perceived inabilities in journalism. That night, I let it consume me.
Then Tuesday came, and I worked with my great colleagues Bibek and Stefania on a story about a local library closing. As we edited the footage, something changed in my attitude. I saw the passion in a resident’s face as she talked about the archaic structure she loved which was boarded up by the city council. She was fighting with everything she had to change the minds of those in power. We were giving her a channel to say those things. Then I remembered something my professor said on the first day of class.
It’s all about people.
That’s why I am a journalist. I am here to give the people a voice, especially those who otherwise have no other outlet. If one person is helped because of something I do, all of the frustration of learning will be worth it.
I’ve also come to the conclusion that just because I’m in a master’s program doesn’t mean I’m supposed to be a master at this. I’m here to learn and progress. I’ve noticed that some level of discomfort comes with every form of growth, and I can’t wait to see how far I go.
Ultimately, I need to keep in mind that what I do is not for good grades . It’s not to win awards or impress very important members of society.
It’s about people.
If there ever comes a time when my motivation is anything other than people, I will take it as my cue to find a new profession.
Until then, I write on.
If you're interested, here's our finished library video: http://youtu.be/QylIezUSM3M
Do I actually like journalism? If not, what am I doing here?! Those were my questions coming back from class on Monday.
I mean, seriously, I’m doing a master’s program in journalism. Most would say that’s a little late in the game to be having an identity crisis.
The doubt was spurred by frustration with my perceived inabilities in journalism. That night, I let it consume me.
Then Tuesday came, and I worked with my great colleagues Bibek and Stefania on a story about a local library closing. As we edited the footage, something changed in my attitude. I saw the passion in a resident’s face as she talked about the archaic structure she loved which was boarded up by the city council. She was fighting with everything she had to change the minds of those in power. We were giving her a channel to say those things. Then I remembered something my professor said on the first day of class.
It’s all about people.
That’s why I am a journalist. I am here to give the people a voice, especially those who otherwise have no other outlet. If one person is helped because of something I do, all of the frustration of learning will be worth it.
I’ve also come to the conclusion that just because I’m in a master’s program doesn’t mean I’m supposed to be a master at this. I’m here to learn and progress. I’ve noticed that some level of discomfort comes with every form of growth, and I can’t wait to see how far I go.
Ultimately, I need to keep in mind that what I do is not for good grades . It’s not to win awards or impress very important members of society.
It’s about people.
If there ever comes a time when my motivation is anything other than people, I will take it as my cue to find a new profession.
Until then, I write on.
If you're interested, here's our finished library video: http://youtu.be/QylIezUSM3M
